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3:35 am….

I AM SO CONFUSED!!!!

Was it caused by the SOA or my Link Field? Or Kenneth’s Margarita and Illusion? Or Dylans Capachirna…???

Confusion, confusion, confusion…..

*i luv cocktails*

I’ll juz deafen my ears to the news bout u,

I’ll look at u to dry my teary eyes,

Then, i’ll look away juz to fill them up with tears again

For everytime i see you, i try

what i try is to say plz stay with me again…

For what i really feel inside, my eyes wont let me hide

For when i see you, they start to cry…

Why am i holding my loyalty to you, when all i hear is u gettin in and out of relationships?

What isit about you?

Why am i  hiding beneath the world covered up by tons of dirt and sorrow?

I wan to shine too…i want to burst and let go of this feeling…and to explore into something new…

Something which will make me laugh and smile ever so widely like i used to…

THe feeling of love has perished and drown inside my little being…

I don wanna believe in it anymore…i don wanna even try…don wanna take the risk…but neither do i wanna miss a thing…

stay close to warm mammals….

N joy nature’s gift….

Party amongst the mist of fog with a bottle of JD and sum Tequilla….hehehe

I saw something interesting in Damansara….

Friendster Cafe….

So decided to pop in and have a look…

A hall of fame….sweeeet….

On the menu: Friendsterchinno ….

Found out the owner’s brother is a blogger too….i think its Jerry Ong or something….

Even before the event….everyone is getting ready and warming up…puttin on their phat pants and kicking and jumpin away..

Cynth and i…juz there for the fun…and coZ ELDON force me to go!!!

Where the party’s at….with Dj’s from over the world…

the brave boy who stood in line for me…awww..sweet stuff…

the Aftermath…..

Conclusion : needed a power drink

Real Madrid’s team power booster…hehe

Diz is why i LUrrrvvvv MELACCA Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo Much!!!!! Even woke up so damn early in the morning to eat dim sum…(me in red) still with heavy eyes..

Tis is the face of satisfaction :post-Durian Cendol eatin’….aaahh…yumm

The bar above is called LIBRA Bar…freakin’ cheap chilled and crisp beer…5 bottles for $30…includin tidbits, nuts…damn! I enjoy life there…

I luurrrvvv the cockles and the snails and Simply Fish and the butter rice and the durian cendol and the satay celup, the chicken ball rice,onde-onde, my OYSTERS and CRAB!! Ooooooohhh…sweet!

1st day back home in KCH….neevr knew wat to expect except i have a gud family who welcomes me with open arms and frenz who brought me to party in SOHO…den saw someone again…sigh…i donno wat and how to xplain me goddammed feeling now…in love??? in pain??? in sorrow?? in happines and gratefullness?? hell , i donno

Juz seein him brings joy to my life again…lifts up my spirit….the smile on his face, the spikes on his hair…the way he dresses, it all impresses me…i know im crazy to post this goddammed blog either but the alcohol is activating in my bloody blood circulations….yeah, hell no i know he aint gonna be mine again…its juz one stupid fuckin phone call that made and created this hella bad prob…

brings misery to my life ever since…forget what i wronte as im pretty sober now…but i still can spell eh?but i met lotsa frenx who gave me support thru the night or else i’ll cry a river ady….tho a few drop of tears were bein shed…i feel much better now…

Jz happy to be back home…I love u all…muaks

Joined the gym…to loose my sebaceous layers…

Routine :

Body torso…15sets x 3

Dumbells…max 3 kg oni

Leg weights 20kg

chest pumps 15kg

Hardcore gym!

Den, Luciano…he’s my dance trainer….from BRAZIL….damn cun man!!!! Join his party jam and latin class…gets me hyped up…

But sis says, i still look fat…sigh…

Den le…swimming at my condo….

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2 weeks ago, attended the Formula 1 SpeedZone rave…

Lotsa shufflers and the thing that bugged me was that amidst the crowd, a shuffler in red tees suddenly fell onto the ground and started wriggling around - as i thought…maybe a kinda wormy move….but NO…HE was fitting….having a FIT ATTACK….

Being a nurse, i knew i had to do something…the 1st thing that came to my mind was to put something into his mouth so he doesnt bite his tongue….not a single soul helped him…i stood there aimlessly…coz there was nothing to put into his mouth…if i put a rock or something, he might juz chip or even break his teeth…or might swallow the damn stone and choke and die…ALamakzzz…

The only thing was my sHOE….hahahaah!StupiDos right? But then, ayeerrr….i don wanna sacrifice my shoe….

While tots kept storming in my head, there was a crowd around him…juz starring…and my Cynthia pulled me away…damn, i felt so freakin bad and juz hope he’s okay…

There were F1 simulators there where u can pretend to be a F1 driver for the  day….

The bez thing was i got to meet up with my cousin and her funny bf and Eldon lorrr…thanks for q-ing for me dude….feel the lovE! hahaha

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Met alot of Fake people….damn fake lorrr….only know how to pretend, drama KINGS mostly…and stop the fuckin’ playa attitude la…im so freakin sick and tired of it! Don give me so much bunga-bunga talk…plz…

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Planning to turn LESBIAN….hahahah! LOLzzz….sigh…

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Watch dramas….i wanna watch Battle Royale….Aarrrooon Teehhh Yeee Hooonngg….plz plz burn it for me …seriously, you guyz gotta watch it…so kick…its about friends killing friends…to reach the ultimate survival…with NO Mercy summo..

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Butterfly Princess…i summon ur jovile soul back….plz come back….

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Still thinkin of someone in the past….gosh! At the same time, Shirley has this song on her PC….by Mariah Carey

" I cant live……if living is without you…..cant live……i cant live anymore….cant liveeeee….if living is without you…..cant live…cant live anymoreeeee….oooooooooooo….wo wooooo…"

Aiyer….-speechless-

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Den, the guy behind me has this song on his PC by Ace of BAse

" happy nation, lalalla….happy nation…."

Hahahahah!

I think im seeing stars in my mind adi….

Naturally me….

MeLaka….here i come again…!!!

as Crazy as i am and pretty laz minute coz felt ultimately bored at home, i decided to pack my bags at 11pm and drive up to Melaka…

Called Lin…

Lin: Hello…me at CC now…playin Dota

MeL : Im comin to fetch ya now…lets go to MELAKA

Lin : Haaaa??? -.-”’

Den i took 1and a half bloody hour to find her place at Sg. Long and used 40 mins to "pia" up to Melaka at the speed of 150km/hr.

FAST AND FURIOUS!!!!

Juz coz of someone and DURIAN CENDOL!!!!! I love my durian cendol…

I really had fun there…even if it was for 2 days…had a day trip to Muar, Johor too…

Ate and ate and ate…satay celup, durian cendol…goreng goreng…OYSTERS and simply fish…HHHHHHHHmmmmmmmmmmmmm…I"LL be back for morE! Yeah, baby…

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Pretty confused lately…ppl are really complicated lorrr…i mean, seriously complicated….and feelings are all mixed up…

Im vulnerable…and afraid and feel STUpid…cos im so kan cheong at times…i panic easily…and so weak…where’s the strong gal i used to know? She’s breakin’ down amidst herself…

Sigh….juz need my home…my family and my friends…

See u all NEXT WEEK!!!

Kuching, HERE I COME!

There’s a guy who i wanna share with the whole world about…he’s so super amazing and abit supernatural at the same time…

He amazes me with his wonders and never fails to get me hyped up and ready , get set for laughters…and when im sad or down, i think about his well-smart-stupidity…

Not gonna reveal his name cos i think he’ll kill me…coz he can leave-no-trace wan…

okay…what kinda guy honors his toilet and makes it a priority in the house? When he xplained the sight of his toilet i imagined Midas’ Touch…

Him : I don like ppl using my bathroom,and i forbid anyone from enterin it…its my sanctuary…for thought

Me : Er…ur abit insane?

Him : Ya wat…i cant even stand seeing a single dirt-spot on my bathroom wall

Me : *thinks* wait till u check my bathroom out…moss to the maX! Haha…exageratin abit looo

Him : I even make my bathroom hoops into wine glass holders..my collection of halfly finished vodka, brandy and whiskies are kept in there too

Me : What eva in the world for??? drink and shit?

Him : NOPE! Alcohol kills germs ma…so i can juz pour them onto the germy area wheneva neccessary

Me  : *Faints* -.-"’

He even wants to put rocks in his shower area…sort of a spa concept …to him la…

FYI my dear, u’ll slip and fall…cos when rocks meet water, MOSS grows…

I Love this guy dearly , seriously…coz he makes my brain speed up to the max…and i can go laughing all the time…

Sigh…Clement, Clement….ooops! HAHAH!